Gas estimate!

ha I gave a gas reading a while ago when I was supposed to be registered for dual fuel. I am not. I received a bill today - estimated. Gas estimation: 000058. Actual 00008. Ha - I do not own the forty odd quid they want/estimated my use as.

Shall rig them tomorrow with my tiny reading and an elec one. Use minimal utilities. heating will only come on if it goes below 15degrees. We are jumper wearers and go to bed early- all together to save money and watch TV in bed! Its cosy! You use one room at a time - go figure!

I shall investigate price deals as well. Any recommendations?


Other than that have not heard from twat creature regarding access and picking up at the weekend. If I have not heard by 9am Sat I am off to visit my sister. I shall purchase cheap petrol and drive to Stirlingshire ( Scotchlanders)

We spent an hour at the beach today. It was lovely - the sea had breakers and the tide was coming in . I am teaching weeny to have mucho respect for the sea. We created a beach art octopus from shells and seaweed and beach detritus!  Explored sand dunes, hunted for a bear and found a rabbit hole. Making the best of the light still available in the evenings. Though with a torch it would be really exciting trip!!  methinks - in good weather of course sans wind being the main priority!

I hope he does not get in touch and plays arse wipe stubborn git I am not picking up my daughter as its a responsibility that should be shared. Yeah and all the others like wiping of brows, taking time off work when ill, taking on holiday, broadening horizons, swimming etc thats all my responsibility. Fecker that he is.

Options for the future on sale of brick and mortar

1. Move to scotchland - closer to family but difficult for B to get home at weekends, less work for me in the area - they have funny systems in scotchland and are a bit picky
2. Move to Sheffield - closer to family, easier for B, central, more work available for me
3. London - hmmm not sure it would be very temporary ( 1 yr) though not a bad thing, but by the time we got there it would be time to move again and would necessitate doing marriage paperwork which neither of us want to do again - we are happy without it and don't want to spoil things but B's job dictates.... Grrrr Australian RAF are much more forward thinking!NO need for paperwork!
4. County Durham - PGCE course - optional not guaranteed, one friend and her husband in the vicinity.


Maybe buy a house in Sheffield - rent it out, live at B's till I move to County Durham for PGCE and rent there....... not at all the first option, the one we really want but we have to be practical and what we want may not happen ever not so far anyway so as an alternative what do we do......especially thinking about family., finances, Weeny...................


Hey ho - fingers crossed arse wipe doesn't bother ........ I hope so much he doesn't bother though that's not nice for weeny. I have churning just thinking about him. Errr YUK

TTFN EEEK!!!

So far..... and its gets.....

better/worse  dunno yet.

Weeny - Due to have contact with the toilet paper that poses as a father this weekend if he can collect her and drop her back. I am resolute that I shall not do it. I ohysically could not make the journey knowing that I am to hand my child over- the most precious in my world!

I have agreed to do mediation and also seen a solicitor.

He is revolting and makes me want to vomit. I have a meeting in October with a mediator, then we have mediation at some point after that. Whatever really. House sells he will not bother his backside if I am far enough away.

Doctors went ok - I have clomid for next cycle and the one after that  then its London Calling for B  and the MOD opposite the  London Eye. Test results good  - well better than previous and FSH 5.9 not bad for nearly 39 and past it lol.

Looking forward to weekends in London - Weeny and I that is. B be home most weekends. Will mothball his place and live here as he will be technically living in London.

House please please sell - I don't care how much - just leave me free to move and start again away from here.

I could be really really happy but its just out of my reach......... all the elements are there...... who knows....

Weather changed plans

No scarecrows as the weather was awful! Weeny stayed in and player with the little girls form next door - they had a great time. Even went all of 30 50 yards to the park on their own. ( The oldest girl is 6 nearly 7 and the park is so so close and at the back of married quarters so  pretty safe - no one has reason to go onto thte estate unless they are visiting - no throughfare.

We will do scarecrows tomorrow.

Weeny doesnt want to go to  his next week.  We have talked about it. I have gently questioned. she has been upset by last weeks goings on. He really needs to sort this out. He should talk to weeeny about it and his troll beast needs to explain as well and not slag me off in the process as this will not help my poor little one to feel better and understand. he needs to listen t her when she wants to come home and not try to coahc her or cajole her into anything. I am still angry about it but am much more rational now. Never told weeny what was mean't by the 'naughty things' that were said. Thought better of it - no need for her to know.

We wil find out on Thursday whether we should keep on trying to procreate. Have had the gammut of tests so truth will out. Poor B. I am not hopeful . I reckon I am past it.

Loooong weekend...

Swimming = £78!!! Oh well she is worth it and the skills she will learn are valuable and will last a lifetime.

Flat tyre - have called  roadside assistance to change it- might as well I pay for it and never use it! Will have to buy a new sodding tyre however. grump grump grump!!!!

Off to scarecrow festival. I will take juice but will indulge in cake and sausage rolls - home made and reasonably priced and to support he village green/hall etc etc Need to purchase a cup of tea at least. Only fair the villagers put in so much effort.


Tomorrow - will be a house day - lots to organise for next week. We are out and about on Tuesday doing bits and bob.

Friday Weeny and I  went to Durham to see chums and to scope it out as a possible place to move to /invest in if as and when I sell this house. Sigh.... potential- cheap, greenish not as pretty as northumberland but not bad at all.


Also we had our hospital appt -and are seeing consultant on 1st September see what we have to play with in the breeding department. Can help us make decisions re houses, money, careers etc etc  we have to much happening at the same time.

 Mediation request sent out. My gut churns every time I think about next weekend......any contact/conflict with the drongo ex and the she drongo and feel like pants. Weeny not that bothered so far and has not used the d word at all.

When have talked she is still not happy that I didn't come and get her like I promised I would.


See what happens.....

Saturday morning swimming lessons!!

Weeny will be a duckling! Saturday morning slot is now free!!! I am so looking forward to it!!! Only half an hour between 8:30 - 9am but should be great. She loves the water. Got a call out of the blue from the leisure centre. Ok so its another early rise but well well worth it.

We sort out dates and payment next week.  not cheap but worth it!

Away to Durham for the evening tomorrow with weeny. B is working this weekend :-(. All sodding weekend.  We have a hospital appointment tomorrow but a bit pointless really given the house situation and that his new posting starts in December.

Sigh enjoy whilst we can.

Semper in excremento sum, solum profunditas mutat!

Always in the shit only the depth varies!

Mediation referral in!
Cheque from Scottish power received.

Weeny got docs tomorrow. Also need to bite the bullet and get her name down for a nursery school me thinks. Want her to start asap prob too late for September now.  Won't be the RC school that I really want due to lack of child care  for after school. 

House dropped with old estate agent- might as well get the best out of them. Other agents are positive-  checked out a third agent re price and that should drum up interest.

Can only wait and see.

Need to get on with electrical stuff and decorating. before carpet dude on Tuesday. I may not make camping again with Weeny this year. Oh well we have a caravan week in September.

Bank hols-  we are off to the scarecrow festival in Rennington.  We catch a dreadnaught vintage bus - the scarecrow express to Rennington. This means driving to Alnwick to leave the car to catch the bus to a village only a few miles away from where we live.  Weeny loves the bus, or trains - haven't tried trams yet next time we are in Sheffield.

I like the latin quote it sums up my year.- nearly a year since made redundant and the shit really hit the fan.

Mind change

Will revert back to once a fortnight on a saturday till sunday - same old and do as always did with proviso of mediation. Also will not be dropping off - will meet half way prob Warkworth by the ducks. Still doing mediation and moving as soon as possible.