So far..... and its gets.....

Monday, 12 September 2011

So far..... and its gets.....

better/worse dunno yet.

Weeny - Due to have contact with the toilet paper that poses as a father this weekend if he can collect her and drop her back. I am resolute that I shall not do it. I ohysically could not make the journey knowing that I am to hand my child over- the most precious in my world!

I have agreed to do mediation and also seen a solicitor.

He is revolting and makes me want to vomit. I have a meeting in October with a mediator, then we have mediation at some point after that. Whatever really. House sells he will not bother his backside if I am far enough away.

Doctors went ok - I have clomid for next cycle and the one after that then its London Calling for B and the MOD opposite the London Eye. Test results good - well better than previous and FSH 5.9 not bad for nearly 39 and past it lol.

Looking forward to weekends in London - Weeny and I that is. B be home most weekends. Will mothball his place and live here as he will be technically living in London.

House please please sell - I don't care how much - just leave me free to move and start again away from here.

I could be really really happy but its just out of my reach......... all the elements are there...... who knows....

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Please may I?13 September 2011 at 01:29
~Keep your chin up hun.

X x
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Unknown14 September 2011 at 03:17
i hate the picks ups drop offs, hugs xx
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Eeek14 September 2011 at 14:11
Chin up as ever - the little smiles and cheeky grins are good for that!!!

Thanks girlies!

Hope that wrist healing hurry's up. I too being righthanded have had the pleasure of pulling up my knickers with one left hand -this is not good.

I am resolute about drop offf and pick up s - I used to do half as he said this was fair- couldn't be bothered to argue at the time but now I realise it is not fair - he nevers makes special journeys for DD ever - no docs appt, never takes time off work, takes her to swimming, parties, play dates, soft play the beach ( her favourite place)He can even keep some of hi maintenance ( pitiful) in exchange for petrol. ( wish I could tell him to get stuffed with his money and time selfish bugger that he is. hi money makes him feel as if he is doing something and is a dad - easy way out. Would prefer someone who gave a shite and would put genuine effort in as a parent with no money to play with.

And I physically cannot journey to drop her off and hand her over to someone I do not trust to care for her as she deserves. Weekend full of worry.

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Once upon a time the end was in sight and financial freedom from my little debt of under 5k was nearly within my grasp! December 2012 if not before with the benefits of frugality however our friend Dave had other plans!!!!

I was made redundant from my job with a pish package I took what I could find till a full time position. Finally taking a 10k salary drop.

In 2009 I invested in property buying my house with a 15% deposit. n 2011 after three years of home owning and negative equity to the tune of 12k I have finally sold and now have jack bloody buggery shite. What smarts is that I gave up time with my small child in favour of seeking security for us. If only I had done the opposite....... rented, claimed top up benefits and saved my hard earned cash .... quality of life for me and weeny girl for three years would have been be better and we would have a cash sum in the bank and no debt.

You play frugal, play independent, watch your consumption, don't do frivalous sofas or new cars, no nights out at the pub type debt just what you have to! After a double whammy from the government - house market slump and Local Authority redundancy compounded by rural living what is a single mum supposed to do???? = Suck it up, Keep smiling, and use a brush instead of a hoover.