Should I stay or should I go...... this indecisions bugging me...

Reasons to go!

Opportuity for a new career!
Moving to a cheaper area  for rent, house prices - though am not in a position to purchase at all!
Good time for Weeny to change schools
Takes three years to train  needs to be done sooner rather than later
Better prospects
To be employed is to be at risk to be employable is to be secure


Reasons to stay!

Money - I can save money here and pay my bills
No risks - roof over my head - life is ok
Job is ok -
Paying a pension
Will be working part time
Some suppport locally from friends in the area and further afield though no one particularly close or family


To buy a house in this area I will need to save 10k at least.

I could save this money for weeny for the future. Chuck it in an ISA or something

In three years assuming that I get a job straight away I will be on the same salary as I am now.

Its a risk and hard work.............. indecision indecision......

Of Monies.....

I am saving the change. The bank suggested it. You save pennies. Basically you set up a save the change account and they round up to the nearest £1 when you spend on your card and then transfer it to a savings account. Since starting the account I am on the grand total of £24! Every little helps like I said.

I am also  saving my survey vouchers for Weeny's christmas. Thats what save the change is for as well.  Easily have over £50 by September if not more and thats a start.

I need to Ebay some clothes and maybe fit in a car boot.  Some toys can be removed now - Albeit surreptitiously..... ;-)

I am down one credit card. Yeah!!!
Two to go - they are both non interest types and have not a great deal on them. > 350. 

Biggles is very understanding. He is happy with his miniscule amount. Which will increase when others are gone. I have a finite amount of time to pay before interest kicks in. Not from Biggles but the CC companies.

I am saving as well for potential moving fees. Doing ok on this point.

I have started buying weeny's school uniform for next year and new underwear.  5-6!!!!! Eeek!!
I try to spread the cost of her clothes. I also purchased wellies £5 one size too big as wellies need socks.

She also got a treat of pink baseball boots. Asda types. She is chuffed. Her trainers are getting tight.

School shoes I shall purchase from Ebay after having her feet measured by Clarks.

I have barely been in a chazza shop and do not do the rounds anymore due to the saving thang so no bargains so far on the kiddy clothes front.

I need to get the timing belt changed on the car, a new wheel trim ( grrrr bugger) and pay for tax. ( !!!!)

The big shop is done. I have withdrawn money to last till the end of the month.


We need haircuts. My hair gets lank and greasy and having fine hair but lots of it I end up getting elf ear! Weeny too. They can wait however.

Hmm I am still debating whether or not I take a chance/risk of retraining for three years or start saving.... I can save more while working and paying a pension however it is not much and I have no hope in hell of buyng a house in these ere parts ever again.  I would need 10k minimum and then paying the mortgage repayments would be impossible. Decisions decisions.....

Other stuffs!

I hope to arrange some school viewing soon. I will be in Durham on 16th July with Weeny.

We were stranded at the weekend due to some skanky bastard in London knocking over Biggles bike and doing shit loads of damage to it.  It was stationary at the time and parked. They shot off.  It will cost buckets to fix. At least a couple of grand. Also meant Biggles spend all day Friday trying to sort it out and then have it transported back to Northumberland. He left London at 3pm and arrived home 4am Saturday morning. Armed forces day he spent sleeping on the sofa then in bed. Woke up for food then back to bed again.

A pox on the person in a silver mini ( there was a witness but no reg taken) who knocked the bike over.

Thi swas his Afghanistan money - he earn't it and also for turning 40. its his prode and joy and the first new bike he has ever owned. A real treat to himself. I think working for 24hours straight at times doing a more stressful job that we can ever imagine.

Arseholes. They must have whacked it - brakes knwackerd lots of cosmetic and some other tec damage. Sorry to be a gender traitor but a twee silver mini..... hmmmm stinks of female pants driver to me who can't reverse or judge distances.

Pay day tomorrow...

And so we make it to another pay day. Shopping.

Weeny and I have eaten very cheaply since our mini roast  on Sunday.

Eggy Bread!!!
Ham Ggg and chips with left over salad bits for me Chicken and chips with salad bits for weeny
Pizza and Crudites - cucumber and carrot to dip in mayo!!

I always make sure Weeny has at least a piece of fruit before she indulges in simple puddings - choc biscuits or ice cream with sauce.


Thursday and  I need to fill up on some basics as well as weekend food. Should come in under £30.
Thursday will be something quick and easy adn prob yellow stickered!

Friday - Spicy sausage and bean casserole with baked spuds.
Saturday - my curry with veg. using makway curry paste tastes just like chinese takeaway curry.
Sunday - Chicken and bacon parcels with mash and veg


Weeny is away this weekend. Sniff. We don't liek it but we need to put up with it.

Biggles and I will attempt to get to Durham again.

I met some lovely podiatrists on Monday. I am really enjoying my job but I know it goes no where. I am worried though... of hte unknown and failure!

I may feel better once I have seen houses and schools.


I shall keep an open mind. I have a telephone appointment with the Welfare officer on Tuesday of next week.


The local podiatrist was very positive. As was the newly qualified podiatrist that was with her. Also positive about work prospects if you are willing to move for jobs and other opportunities.

I shall keep in touch and ask for a placement there I think. its a long way from Durham but useful fo rthe future I think. Alot of travelling but who knows....I can alwasy get a child minder for a short period or even take Weeny out of school. Some home ed stuff from a chum may not hurt.

Real Food Works!!!

Local enterpise trying to get folk to eat healthily specialising in quick easy cheap nutritious microwave recipes.

Some of them are bloody lovely! Using cheap ingredients usually no more than 6 ingredients, simple instructions and take no longer than `15 mins. Quite ingenious some of them!

The enterprise will do demos locally as long as they have access to an electricity source and hot water!

Starters, soups, mains loads of stuff!!!

http://www.realfoodworks.co.uk/recipes.html

All plans cancelled due to virus. nothing to report bar sore throat and general aches and ferling rubbish. Also the house I wanted to look at was taken so will venture to deepest darkest Durham another time. I have to take documents to the college on person so will kill two birds.

The weekend doth approach!!!!

I like me a Thursday - the end is nigh!!!! Of the week that is.  No great plans - usual swimming then a trip to look at the Durham village I may consider gracing with my presence for the next few years.

Weeny girl is adopting a fantastic fashion sense. It helps that she has a plethora of clothes - hand me downs, some bought for her and some bought second hand.

Yesterday she went out in leopard spot leggins under a long pink maxi dress with a furry Gillette! She looked cool as. I let her choose her garb when she gets changed from school before she plays out with some little pals. They don't go far - just the front of the houses in case you were worrying. She is only four after all.

I wear boring work stuff so my begin a weeny's mad fashion outfit post. She chooses jewellery and other accessories as well.  Its cute. Well I think so.

Down to the last £50 and a week till pay day. I need petrol and some bits of food.
 Tom sauce, bread, milk, fruit, ham,  I can cope with the rest.

We will be eating

Thursday - Hmmm not sure yet - See what cheap delights there are in Morrisons! Yellow Stickers!!!!
Friday - Thai Curry
Saturday - Lemon Chicken
Sunday - Cheap turkey roast.

Biggles is off to Knock Hill racing thing on Sunday. he has won a pillion trip around the circuit with a Superbikes rider dude of who's name I have forgotten. We are staying at home. he will be back late Sunday night before heading off again on Monday.

Weeny and I will do stuff on Sunday depending on the weather. Inside crafty things or a mooch in the park I reckon.

Hulne Park maybe which is the Duke of Northumberlands personal playground and open to the Serfs who live in Alnwick. No swings but an abbey ( ruined) a folly and some other bits.

http://www.northofthetyne.co.uk/hulnepark.html

View across the county

Brizlee Tower

I do live somewhere pretty. Though County Durham is nice too and needs must. Am not lookign forward to moving Weeny girl and heading off in to the unknown.  At least at the moment I know I can feed and clothe her but if I don't do anything nothing will change....... Sigh.

Apart from the dilemma... well...

Biggles and I had a week off together - whay hey!!! The three of us trundled to Scotland to see my sister and family.

We had planned to do lots of things but my cousins funeral was Wednesday mid week after bank hols. I wanted to go as did my sister so we arranged to fly to Norwich in the morning and back that evening.

Prior to that we had a bike adventure. Weeny stayed with her auntie for treats and jubilee parties.
Biggles and I headed off  on the bike for an adventure all the way to the Kyle of Lochalsh and Skye.
We camped by Eilen Donan ( Sorry not the right Gaelic spelling). It was lovely.  My MOT was due so we headed back to Northumberland on Thursday.  We ate out - three times. Horrendous. but you don't have much options if you are biking.

The funeral was so very very wrong. Surreal as she had taken her own life. The eulogy from her family alluded to this albeit nicelyish but there was tension and blame.

Good to reconnect with other family members but in really shitty circumstances.

It was as I thought - unhappy marriage a huge violent argument with her daughter who apparently had slapped her mother and tore the shirt from her back. She is apparently a very spoilt girl. Likely that her the young daughter will lose touch with her great grand mother and father. Its all very tragic and sad for all and especially my cousin. Not everyone is blessed with strength in the face of adversity. Some keep getting up again and like they say you can't keep a good dog down but not everyone is made of sterner stuff.

It was never appropriate to ask too many questions. We got the gist of it and let people speak but he atmosphere was there.  Wakes are often celebrations of life. This one def wasn't.

Hopefully at peace now and I pray for strength for her parents, sister and children to get through it.

Her sister confirmed that her husband was possessive, jealous, controlling though never violent but moody and had the purse strings but we all knew that from a long time ago and some leopards never change their spots.


But camping by motorbike was ace!!!

I return to my dilemma...... ahhhhhhh lol Will get there. I do need a change though- or at least need to try for a change. I am not ready to settle just yet. There is life in the old dog and she is eager and sniffing  for a new challenge. Which one I really do not know. ha ha